let's go rustic.

I think my mom is really reliving her deprived teenage years. She is an ultimate fangirl. The checks up on Anuar Zain's website from time to time to check up on his upcoming concerts (and then makes me attend all of it). I don't mind accompanying her but sometimes I'm lazy la! The top two websites she logs on to are probably anuarzain.com and youtube.

My ipod is ancient. Oh talking about ipods, my mom got one the same time that I did and her colleague helped her upload songs, dramas and movies into her ipod. Bad move, I'm gonna hijack it now coz she has all the old school Backstreet Boys songs. First it was Twilight (I watched it three to four times on her ipod), then Shopaholic and now it's the BSB songs!

TEP has been...... Different lol. I think we're still fooling around, taking pictures and recording stupid videos. I take more smoke breaks more than when I was IPP. Suckssss. I hate how setting up for a freaking Movie Musketeers set takes us like an hour plus coz the TFA and the LTCs are not available. So now, we have to make do with Studio A. Bagus, bagus sangat eh?

Whatever.

I cannot wait for jalan raya with budak Temasek yay yay!

Now let me show you the shape of my heart,
Nissa.

If (almost) 6 months of attachment went by in a nano second, then a month was probably less that that.

Time and time again I come back to this same space but I never seem to update. I've given up on posting pictures, think I lost the patience in tumpang-ing them in Isa's photobucket lol.

But since Hari Raya is coming.....

Nissa nak susun sepuluh jari (salam sikit salam sikit), nak minta ampun dan maaf atas segala salah silap yang Nissa dah buat okay? Kalau terkasar bahasa ke (tu memang la), terguriskan hati ke, secara sengaja atau tak sengaja, minta ampun!

A very advanced Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all the Muslims!

Minal Aidil Wal Faizin,
Nissa.

1) I miss you girls. Have fun at KR and the rest of Uni. <3

2) I wish I could've stayed for the chalet. It's literally like Sec One all over again, except we're juicier with gossip. Teehee.

3) I feel like I should just be permanently hired and get paid more. AND HAVE MY NAMECARDS MADE!!!!!

4) In case anyone cares, I'm no longer talking to S. Not intending to. I've made it so obvious that I was interested, ball was in his court.

5) I miss school, and I can't say this enough. I actually miss lectures and tutorials, as much as we group into our own little cliques and not really interact unless we need answers that we didn't manage to copy down.

Besides all that, all that I talk about is work and S. Well, not anymore coz I can't be fucking bothered about someone who doesn't know what he wants. Boys, can't live with them can't live without them. Well, work takes up pretty much all my time. Five interns who've been with us will be leaving on Friday. It's gonna take some getting used to. But I can't wait for the dinner + afterparty! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Old flames don't suddenly come back like your old flames,
Nissa.

No more love stories that cross racial boundaries.
No more movies with Mak Inom, Pak Atan and Orked as inspirations, except works that have been reproduced into DVDs or VCDs.
No more The Storyteller, because that was what you were.

I never knew Yasmin Ahmad personally except for the very brief session after a screening session of Gubra. I've read her blog, watched interviews and videos. I have watched Sepet, Gubra and Mukhsin and everytime I watch them again I learn something else. I start to love something else. I am still trying to get a hold of Rabun and Talentime, someone please get them for my next birthday!

Her movies have the most amazing literary details that I could ever imagine. It still hasn't hit me but we have lost one of the best storytellers in the region.

Al Fatehah.

I am actually supposed to be sleeping. I'm hungryyyyyyyyyyy. I only had fishball soup, a small tub of ice cream and two redbulls for the whole day. The event was awesome, I'm so happy I get fun accounts to work on! Met a new friend I made from attending another event. Had the CASANOVA team there. I'm so happy, my life's been hectic but I'm learning and gaining so much. I still can't wait for school, I miss the food!

What am I still doing here? I have errands to run tomorrow and I'm still awake. Shit.

We're not the same,
Nissa.

1) I just leaned back and wrinkled my skirt for tomorrow. I told D that I was planning to wear dresses the for the whole of this week, but I realised that I don't have enough dresses (the rest are maxi dresses and they look too dressy) to last me through the week. I should get two more so that I have 5, then I can wear black dresses for a whole working week!

2) I have survived with the bare amount of make up on my face (as compared to the usual). I don't even put on my eyeliner everyday. After two events last Thursday, I was shocked to see the amount of make up I usually put on my face on normal school days. Maybe the black parts of the make up removing wipes are not that obvious but with mascara, woohoo. I even took a picture of the wipe. I think part of me just stopped bothering about make up for work UNLESS we're meeting clients or having events.

3) I was having a hard time at work in the beginning, but now I'm accepting what I do. It's been almost two months and I'm still learning stuff that I do on a regular basis, just refining it as I go along. If I wasn't in this position, I wouldn't have networked at all!

4) Mas, I want to bump into R and then I'll see what he's really like.

5) Nad, we need a quadruple date. Come back and clear your quarantine quick!!

6) Afiq, my mom told me to tell you that she's seeing Anuar on 2nd July. She giggled when she said that.

7) I am actually sleepy but I want to eat my peanut butter cups. They are safely stored in the fridge but I am sooooooooo lazy to go get them.

8) I went back to school after like, three weeks maybe? I miss cheap McDs, so I had the usual McSpicy yummmm.

Now I need dessert,
Nissa.

It seems like you are moving on, but I am not significant.

I. Am. Not. Significant.
Nissa.

I've let so many go, now I don't even have one to hold on to.

I miss school so much. I had to say no to a trip to Iceland (bless my comm member's soul for suggesting my name instead) because of prior commitments that I cannot avoid. Although it's only a week long. When will opportunities like this come again? The only reason I get involved in school related activities and help out in events is because I know I won't have the drive and opportunity to do it once I get older. I'll get lazier and I don't want to regret it later if I haven't maximized the time I had in school.

I miss bumping into people in school, the student prices for Macs, lecture theatres, the hot dog bun from the library cafe. And I'm not even out of school yet!

Count your lucky stars,
Nissa.

I am so fucking angry with myself.

My body is aching from carrying all the belongings in a ziploc bag. The class I took was BF0901. Hmmm. Well, I know i tried. I think it got better on the second day, as always. Let's hope some of them survive with those kind of attitudes. The two days could've been better. Oh well, that's over.

I officially start my attachment on Monday. No helping out for club crawl, but looks like I'll be rushing back to school after work everytime there's a meeting. I don't know what to feel for the first day, really. Part of me is excited, I was lucky to get the first choice. But the other part was hoping I got something else, just for the surprise element. At least it's near city hall/ bugis. And I've got Khad with me, so I'm not going to be the only one there. Now where is my multi-purpose blouse huh?

Life's been pretty good so far. Let's see what's going to happen next.

Come home,
Nissa.

I am supposed to get some sleep before my K drama starts. I have to be in school by 12 (still a luxury heh) but I'm watching Amr Diab sing to his one and only in his music video. Arab songs have too much heartbreak. I actually read on Wikipedia that almost all Arab songs have a heartbreak or that longing for a girl's/guy's love but she/he is with someone else. Typical but such a guilty pleasure on my side.

I bought a zebra skirt, I just need zebra stockings and pumps now. Harhar.

Khalas,
Nissa.

Tu la. Jatuh hati dengan orang yang tak akan pernah jadi milik kau lagi kan. Sendiri mau ingat.

I have gone crazy waiting for attachment results, and finally the briefing (only) will be this coming Tuesday. My lecturer doesn't want to tell me where I got posted to, let alone the sector. Greaaaaaaat. My body's pretty much shocked by three weeks of not touching it at all, so I got a pretty bad headache after that. It's the sick season, a lot of people that I know are not feeling too good.

Orientation 09 next week. My partner is Shalini darling, I hope we don't get a cynical class. I take pride in being an OGL, yes I do. I hope the start of attachment doesn't clash with orientation or club crawl. Please please please. I want to be there for both events. And I hope the planning of the comeback party goes on smoothly. I hope we really get THEM to sign on. Hopefully they're feeling nice and they lower their price or something. Ahhhhh, I'm so eggcited if they do come! But I won't get to dance around if I'm planning it this time. /:

Still waiting,
Nissa. 

The best story today was about Pedus. Yuki used to be a meanie, thank God he's not like that anymore now.

"This guy in my class introduced himself. 'Hi everyone. My name is Pedus. Let me tell you a story about my name. My dad's name is Peter and my mom's name is Daisy. So my name is Peter, Daisy and Us joined together."

I have no idea if this dude was making it up but that was sure one good story. I still introduce myself as a car minus the N at the back. People find it lame and really silly sometimes but at least they'll know how to spell my name and actually say it right! Not Misa, Miza or Lisa.

Run run run,
Khairunnisa Bahruddin. (hehehe)

Finally, I get to check my results. See, I also want a piece of the "I'm getting my results in a few hours" nerves like As students. But not as sexciting la. I'm not eligible for uni yet. I need to multiply my credits and close the gap of my GPA hokay?

Anyway, I think I improved in my own way I suppose? No Ds at all this time round compared to the usual D I'd get for one module at least. But no As. No surprise there too. But sorry la still pathetic ah my results. I can't possibly bank on attachment and TEP only right. I hope hope HOOOOOOOPE they take CCA into consideration.

Not so lucky la,
Nissa.

I feel like an update is so obviously necessary, with pictures to include in my entries and shit like that. But honestly, I just cannot be bothered anymore. Facebook has been an unofficial update tool for me, so I really don't see the point in expressing my thoughts here. Unless you're in my msn, contacts list or facebook, then I won't have any contact with you at all.

I should be thankful that I'm having my holidays but they seem to be stretching till forever. Another month +/- to attachment. But it's got me thinking. Like, seriously. I don't belong in the media industry here. It'd probably be much more exciting in Malaysia. So why am I still here?!

Everyone's going places. OSEP people in Nice or Paris. Sarah in Cebu right now. Marjuk went to Vietnam. Widya went to Jakarta. AFIQ ZAIN IS IN LONDON. Afiq, my mom misses you. She even said we should have dinner one day.

Oh, and I found out my dad was born on V Day. Anuar Zain was born a day after. I had an ex-boyfriend who was born of V Day too. What are the odds? "If I had met Anuar Zain before your father, I would've married him." My mom says the darnest things. But we're both fangirls, I think I say (and do) much more fangirl-ish things in showing my affection.

Who's up for a trip to Ubin?

I'm the lucky one,
Nissa.

Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?

Hello today seems like a good day to update!

So I spent my Christmas eve with my Mommy. We went to Novena to book tickets for the family's KL trip (which I am missing because of Camp Impact. Somehow I have mixed feelings about not going for the trip. /: ) for a relative's wedding. I love going to KL, even though the only place we go to is Masjid India allllllllll the time. This is why I can't wait to travel with my friends ONLY. Especially those who know where to find the best stuff and prices! But that has to wait, I have to join The Amazing Race Asia first and win that half a million heehee.

While window shopping I found my love for leggings again. And my new found love for long-sleeved tops. It helps in this chilly season especially. Maybe we don't have snow but we have the monsoon season. My skin's been behaving too, my face doesn't get oily AT ALL even though I have make up on the whole time. And when I wake up, it's not oily AT ALL. Why can't wonderful skin days just stay foreverrrrrrr?!

I finally watched Muallaf on Tuesday morning (but I missed 10 mins in the beginning). As usual, Yasmin Ahmad has fabulous cinematography, sweet storyline but maybe I still prefer Gubra. But noooooooooo, all Yasmin Ahmad movies are my favourites! I am definitely getting the DVD when it's finally released. I can't wait for Talentime to come out! Sharifah Amani is the Assistant Director if I'm not wrong. Exciting nya!!!!

Afiq! Mas! Naddie! I feel like playing Taboo now!