let's go rustic.

hijack.

Mon, 28 Sep 2009 13:10:45 GMT

I think my mom is really reliving her deprived teenage years. She is an ultimate fangirl. The checks up on Anuar Zain's website from time to time to check up on his upcoming concerts (and then makes me attend all of it). I don't mind accompanying her but sometimes I'm lazy la! The top two websites she logs on to are probably anuarzain.com and youtube.

My ipod is ancient. Oh talking about ipods, my mom got one the same time that I did and her colleague helped her upload songs, dramas and movies into her ipod. Bad move, I'm gonna hijack it now coz she has all the old school Backstreet Boys songs. First it was Twilight (I watched it three to four times on her ipod), then Shopaholic and now it's the BSB songs!

TEP has been...... Different lol. I think we're still fooling around, taking pictures and recording stupid videos. I take more smoke breaks more than when I was IPP. Suckssss. I hate how setting up for a freaking Movie Musketeers set takes us like an hour plus coz the TFA and the LTCs are not available. So now, we have to make do with Studio A. Bagus, bagus sangat eh?

Whatever.

I cannot wait for jalan raya with budak Temasek yay yay!

Now let me show you the shape of my heart,
Nissa.

the last sahur for the year.

Fri, 18 Sep 2009 22:18:32 GMT

If (almost) 6 months of attachment went by in a nano second, then a month was probably less that that.

Time and time again I come back to this same space but I never seem to update. I've given up on posting pictures, think I lost the patience in tumpang-ing them in Isa's photobucket lol.

But since Hari Raya is coming.....

Nissa nak susun sepuluh jari (salam sikit salam sikit), nak minta ampun dan maaf atas segala salah silap yang Nissa dah buat okay? Kalau terkasar bahasa ke (tu memang la), terguriskan hati ke, secara sengaja atau tak sengaja, minta ampun!

A very advanced Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri to all the Muslims!

Minal Aidil Wal Faizin,
Nissa.

this might be a little bit more obvious.

Tue, 04 Aug 2009 05:15:55 GMT

1) I miss you girls. Have fun at KR and the rest of Uni. <3

2) I wish I could've stayed for the chalet. It's literally like Sec One all over again, except we're juicier with gossip. Teehee.

3) I feel like I should just be permanently hired and get paid more. AND HAVE MY NAMECARDS MADE!!!!!

4) In case anyone cares, I'm no longer talking to S. Not intending to. I've made it so obvious that I was interested, ball was in his court.

5) I miss school, and I can't say this enough. I actually miss lectures and tutorials, as much as we group into our own little cliques and not really interact unless we need answers that we didn't manage to copy down.

Besides all that, all that I talk about is work and S. Well, not anymore coz I can't be fucking bothered about someone who doesn't know what he wants. Boys, can't live with them can't live without them. Well, work takes up pretty much all my time. Five interns who've been with us will be leaving on Friday. It's gonna take some getting used to. But I can't wait for the dinner + afterparty! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Old flames don't suddenly come back like your old flames,
Nissa.

i feel like she deserves her own post.

Sun, 26 Jul 2009 14:34:17 GMT

No more love stories that cross racial boundaries.
No more movies with Mak Inom, Pak Atan and Orked as inspirations, except works that have been reproduced into DVDs or VCDs.
No more The Storyteller, because that was what you were.

I never knew Yasmin Ahmad personally except for the very brief session after a screening session of Gubra. I've read her blog, watched interviews and videos. I have watched Sepet, Gubra and Mukhsin and everytime I watch them again I learn something else. I start to love something else. I am still trying to get a hold of Rabun and Talentime, someone please get them for my next birthday!

Her movies have the most amazing literary details that I could ever imagine. It still hasn't hit me but we have lost one of the best storytellers in the region.

Al Fatehah.

devouring.

Sat, 20 Jun 2009 18:09:48 GMT

I am actually supposed to be sleeping. I'm hungryyyyyyyyyyy. I only had fishball soup, a small tub of ice cream and two redbulls for the whole day. The event was awesome, I'm so happy I get fun accounts to work on! Met a new friend I made from attending another event. Had the CASANOVA team there. I'm so happy, my life's been hectic but I'm learning and gaining so much. I still can't wait for school, I miss the food!

What am I still doing here? I have errands to run tomorrow and I'm still awake. Shit.

We're not the same,
Nissa.

some form of release.

Tue, 16 Jun 2009 18:10:29 GMT

1) I just leaned back and wrinkled my skirt for tomorrow. I told D that I was planning to wear dresses the for the whole of this week, but I realised that I don't have enough dresses (the rest are maxi dresses and they look too dressy) to last me through the week. I should get two more so that I have 5, then I can wear black dresses for a whole working week!

2) I have survived with the bare amount of make up on my face (as compared to the usual). I don't even put on my eyeliner everyday. After two events last Thursday, I was shocked to see the amount of make up I usually put on my face on normal school days. Maybe the black parts of the make up removing wipes are not that obvious but with mascara, woohoo. I even took a picture of the wipe. I think part of me just stopped bothering about make up for work UNLESS we're meeting clients or having events.

3) I was having a hard time at work in the beginning, but now I'm accepting what I do. It's been almost two months and I'm still learning stuff that I do on a regular basis, just refining it as I go along. If I wasn't in this position, I wouldn't have networked at all!

4) Mas, I want to bump into R and then I'll see what he's really like.

5) Nad, we need a quadruple date. Come back and clear your quarantine quick!!

6) Afiq, my mom told me to tell you that she's seeing Anuar on 2nd July. She giggled when she said that.

7) I am actually sleepy but I want to eat my peanut butter cups. They are safely stored in the fridge but I am sooooooooo lazy to go get them.

8) I went back to school after like, three weeks maybe? I miss cheap McDs, so I had the usual McSpicy yummmm.

Now I need dessert,
Nissa.

this don't even feel like falling.

Sat, 06 Jun 2009 16:06:40 GMT

It seems like you are moving on, but I am not significant.

I. Am. Not. Significant.
Nissa.

come back.

Sun, 31 May 2009 16:38:05 GMT

I've let so many go, now I don't even have one to hold on to.

Sun, 24 May 2009 12:22:58 GMT

I miss school so much. I had to say no to a trip to Iceland (bless my comm member's soul for suggesting my name instead) because of prior commitments that I cannot avoid. Although it's only a week long. When will opportunities like this come again? The only reason I get involved in school related activities and help out in events is because I know I won't have the drive and opportunity to do it once I get older. I'll get lazier and I don't want to regret it later if I haven't maximized the time I had in school.

I miss bumping into people in school, the student prices for Macs, lecture theatres, the hot dog bun from the library cafe. And I'm not even out of school yet!

Count your lucky stars,
Nissa.

Sat, 25 Apr 2009 16:42:55 GMT

I am so fucking angry with myself.

HS0804 is still the best class as on ogl.

Sat, 18 Apr 2009 17:34:29 GMT

My body is aching from carrying all the belongings in a ziploc bag. The class I took was BF0901. Hmmm. Well, I know i tried. I think it got better on the second day, as always. Let's hope some of them survive with those kind of attitudes. The two days could've been better. Oh well, that's over.

I officially start my attachment on Monday. No helping out for club crawl, but looks like I'll be rushing back to school after work everytime there's a meeting. I don't know what to feel for the first day, really. Part of me is excited, I was lucky to get the first choice. But the other part was hoping I got something else, just for the surprise element. At least it's near city hall/ bugis. And I've got Khad with me, so I'm not going to be the only one there. Now where is my multi-purpose blouse huh?

Life's been pretty good so far. Let's see what's going to happen next.

Come home,
Nissa.

mommy sings love is blind.

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 18:13:05 GMT

I am supposed to get some sleep before my K drama starts. I have to be in school by 12 (still a luxury heh) but I'm watching Amr Diab sing to his one and only in his music video. Arab songs have too much heartbreak. I actually read on Wikipedia that almost all Arab songs have a heartbreak or that longing for a girl's/guy's love but she/he is with someone else. Typical but such a guilty pleasure on my side.

I bought a zebra skirt, I just need zebra stockings and pumps now. Harhar.

Khalas,
Nissa.

batucada.

Sat, 11 Apr 2009 17:02:13 GMT

Tu la. Jatuh hati dengan orang yang tak akan pernah jadi milik kau lagi kan. Sendiri mau ingat.

I have gone crazy waiting for attachment results, and finally the briefing (only) will be this coming Tuesday. My lecturer doesn't want to tell me where I got posted to, let alone the sector. Greaaaaaaat. My body's pretty much shocked by three weeks of not touching it at all, so I got a pretty bad headache after that. It's the sick season, a lot of people that I know are not feeling too good.

Orientation 09 next week. My partner is Shalini darling, I hope we don't get a cynical class. I take pride in being an OGL, yes I do. I hope the start of attachment doesn't clash with orientation or club crawl. Please please please. I want to be there for both events. And I hope the planning of the comeback party goes on smoothly. I hope we really get THEM to sign on. Hopefully they're feeling nice and they lower their price or something. Ahhhhh, I'm so eggcited if they do come! But I won't get to dance around if I'm planning it this time. /:

Still waiting,
Nissa.

nefertiti's charm.

Tue, 07 Apr 2009 16:26:17 GMT

I should probably grab your face and kiss you hard, then make you realize what you'll leave behind.

hey michael!

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 16:03:36 GMT

The best story today was about Pedus. Yuki used to be a meanie, thank God he's not like that anymore now.

"This guy in my class introduced himself. 'Hi everyone. My name is Pedus. Let me tell you a story about my name. My dad's name is Peter and my mom's name is Daisy. So my name is Peter, Daisy and Us joined together."

I have no idea if this dude was making it up but that was sure one good story. I still introduce myself as a car minus the N at the back. People find it lame and really silly sometimes but at least they'll know how to spell my name and actually say it right! Not Misa, Miza or Lisa.

Run run run,
Khairunnisa Bahruddin. (hehehe)

slight of hand.

Tue, 17 Mar 2009 03:48:35 GMT

Finally, I get to check my results. See, I also want a piece of the "I'm getting my results in a few hours" nerves like As students. But not as sexciting la. I'm not eligible for uni yet. I need to multiply my credits and close the gap of my GPA hokay?

Anyway, I think I improved in my own way I suppose? No Ds at all this time round compared to the usual D I'd get for one module at least. But no As. No surprise there too. But sorry la still pathetic ah my results. I can't possibly bank on attachment and TEP only right. I hope hope HOOOOOOOPE they take CCA into consideration.

Not so lucky la,
Nissa.

paling agung.

Sat, 14 Mar 2009 14:21:54 GMT

I feel like an update is so obviously necessary, with pictures to include in my entries and shit like that. But honestly, I just cannot be bothered anymore. Facebook has been an unofficial update tool for me, so I really don't see the point in expressing my thoughts here. Unless you're in my msn, contacts list or facebook, then I won't have any contact with you at all.

I should be thankful that I'm having my holidays but they seem to be stretching till forever. Another month +/- to attachment. But it's got me thinking. Like, seriously. I don't belong in the media industry here. It'd probably be much more exciting in Malaysia. So why am I still here?!

Everyone's going places. OSEP people in Nice or Paris. Sarah in Cebu right now. Marjuk went to Vietnam. Widya went to Jakarta. AFIQ ZAIN IS IN LONDON. Afiq, my mom misses you. She even said we should have dinner one day.

Oh, and I found out my dad was born on V Day. Anuar Zain was born a day after. I had an ex-boyfriend who was born of V Day too. What are the odds? "If I had met Anuar Zain before your father, I would've married him." My mom says the darnest things. But we're both fangirls, I think I say (and do) much more fangirl-ish things in showing my affection.

Who's up for a trip to Ubin?

I'm the lucky one,
Nissa.

tell me if it's worth it.

Thu, 29 Jan 2009 16:39:27 GMT

Did I make it that easy to walk right in and out of my life?

la vie.

Wed, 24 Dec 2008 13:55:22 GMT

Hello today seems like a good day to update!

So I spent my Christmas eve with my Mommy. We went to Novena to book tickets for the family's KL trip (which I am missing because of Camp Impact. Somehow I have mixed feelings about not going for the trip. /: ) for a relative's wedding. I love going to KL, even though the only place we go to is Masjid India allllllllll the time. This is why I can't wait to travel with my friends ONLY. Especially those who know where to find the best stuff and prices! But that has to wait, I have to join The Amazing Race Asia first and win that half a million heehee.

While window shopping I found my love for leggings again. And my new found love for long-sleeved tops. It helps in this chilly season especially. Maybe we don't have snow but we have the monsoon season. My skin's been behaving too, my face doesn't get oily AT ALL even though I have make up on the whole time. And when I wake up, it's not oily AT ALL. Why can't wonderful skin days just stay foreverrrrrrr?!

I finally watched Muallaf on Tuesday morning (but I missed 10 mins in the beginning). As usual, Yasmin Ahmad has fabulous cinematography, sweet storyline but maybe I still prefer Gubra. But noooooooooo, all Yasmin Ahmad movies are my favourites! I am definitely getting the DVD when it's finally released. I can't wait for Talentime to come out! Sharifah Amani is the Assistant Director if I'm not wrong. Exciting nya!!!!

Afiq! Mas! Naddie! I feel like playing Taboo now!

Qistina.

Wed, 10 Dec 2008 16:53:44 GMT

Qahhar Ikram is planning to blackmail me with the letter I wrote him during primary school. First it started off with NS talk.

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

when are you booking in again?

qahhar ikram says:

april! hopefully all muscle ah. hahahaha. i dunno. i just saw my friend who went in obese. now WAH. damn super hunk.

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

where were you posted?

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

tekong ah

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

haha i almost typed ubin

qahhar ikram says:

yupp yupp ubin. our traninnng is cycling and teaching school kids obs.

qahhar ikram says:

haha yeah tekong. the ghost town of army.

qahhar ikram says:

oooooh

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

haha sheeeeeeeesh

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

don't pandai2 go and find trouble also la

qahhar ikram says:

i call the ghost then i tembak the ghost

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

haha you nonsense boy

qahhar ikram says:

haha but seriously heard so many stories i dunno what to believe already. and i honestly think if i do see one. i swear i shoot one. haha

Then I was a thinking about how he is still as lame as ever since primary school. And I realised that I have known him when I was still in that "experimenting" stage.

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

i can't believe we're 18

qahhar ikram says:

yupp yupp it was only so recently that..im going to embarasse you now

qahhar ikram says:

hat you were writing me the letter

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

DAH

qahhar ikram says:

QISTINA!

qahhar ikram says:

hahaha

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

STOP IT

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

EEYER I WAS REALLY STUPID K

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

why the hell did i even like you sia

qahhar ikram says:

HEY! ouch!

qahhar ikram says:

im cute and funnt and lovable OK

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

haha dah tu je?

Then Qahhar realised that he didn't have that many memories of primary school.

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

wow i was really stupid

qahhar ikram says:

yes yes nissa. thanks for rubbing the salt in uh.

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

haha ya la all those stupid tactics!

qahhar ikram says:

ah? what tactics?

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

write letter all

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

haha

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

damn slenger bacin

qahhar ikram says:

hurr hurr

qahhar ikram says:

i still have it i think

nissa |just one of the guys.| says:

please just burn it

qahhar ikram says:

hey! no way. i have only two memories of primary school.

Bestest.

Thu, 04 Dec 2008 14:13:18 GMT

This small space, neglected. When I used to have a blogspot account, I tried to update it every other day. Sometimes more than once a day. But it seems like I cannot commit myself to updating for at LEAST once a week. So when I finally update, it’s stale and not timely anymore (cheh cheh like newspaper like that).

I shall start with the latest ummm, physical change I’ve had. After two years of witnessing me through poly, I finally went to cut my hair short. I’ve been trimming and maintaining the length for the past two years and I felt like, it was time for a change. I used get my hair cut when I feel like the school work was piling up or simply on impulse. This time, I’ve been considering it for quite some time. For months in fact. Finally didn’t chicken out. And it was probably a mere coincidence, but on the same day I had to use a new tube of lip balm, powder and the date was 1st December. How awesome. (:

This semester’s workload seems to be heavier and deadlines don’t even need an announcement. You’ll know there’s a deadline when people start to rush, people start complaining about IP or Entre or whatever. People’s status start to be busy forever, you rarely see someone who’s literally online.

I miss the lepak-ing times. There shouldn’t even be too much lepak-ing involved but that was then. Honeymoon period is over, darling.

Oh oh! I want to watch Muallaf, though. That’s gonna be a getaway. Yasmin Ahmad FTW!

With love,

Nissa.

my mom got a new phone when i'm the one who really needs a new one.

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 14:57:01 GMT

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
You don't really want to stay, no
But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

i think this is a perfect description of my PMS episodes. i am really sorry to those who have been victims. i love you still.

tear my heart apart (and maybe my clothes too).

Fri, 15 Aug 2008 15:55:56 GMT

i haven't been been on msn for hours in a week and the olympics and cable are Satans in disguise, being my source of distraction. i didn't do much studying except for the last two days maybe? weekends will feel like o-level period, because i'm going to get out of the house to get my studying done. but then, the one form of distraction that keeps me away from my pen and paper (when i'm outside that is) is food! such luxuries, but shit, they're so lethal during the exam period. hmmmm.

by the way, i FINALLY got a new camera. nothing like 10 point something megapixels and a sleek design what-have-yous, just a simple chocolate brown canon that's good enough to eat. good price too! i shall name it timtam. now all i have to do is find a bouncer (preferably with the name of brando) to guard it. and maybe i can have a fling with brando after that.

if anyone wants to see pictures of the monsoon hair show at zouk, you can go to stomp and find it under the club stomp gallery. i still haven't gotten the pre-show pictures from my partner kelvin (i had clips in my hair and i could camouflage my face next to a white table cloth). i have to say that whole experience made me realise how it's not always fun being looked at from top to toe. they really look at you based on your looks, especially if you're doing it next to girls who have done this kind of events before. the runway director asked if anyone was interested in doing another stint for zouk (the benefit was a free membership to zouk). but nooooooo way. i'm very thankful that the other partners, beatrice, was a secondary school classmate and kelvin (who's 24 but looks 18), were really nice. some of the other girls and guys were really nice too. becky, an ntu student doing mass comm, was the girl standing in front of me and it was so such a relief when she talked to me while i waited outside zouk at 930am. then it was beverly, who saw me twice before the actual event but i never noticed her! i felt bad, coz i really wanted to talk to people but i just didn't dare to. there was also the nyp guys, alfred and wayne. alfred's gf bernadette, their friend samantha. the other guys like jason, and some others that i had small chats with but never got their names. i wish we all got styled together more often, coz that would've made me feel much more comfortable during the initial stages of the whole stint. if only i wasn't so scared to poke contacts into my eyes, i would've eyecandied more people while i was walking, heehee. :D thanks raqin and anwari for coming down. and to those who have given me the support while i was having a really hard time trying to convince myself that i'll do alright for the stint, my many thanks. <3

i have three books that i want to get: the scent trail: a journey of the sense by celia lyttelton, innocent erendira and her heartless grandmother and the autumn of the patriarch, both by gabriel garcia marquez. i shall tick off "lazing on the beach with a good book alone" off my list soon enough.

this girl feels a little unloved. haha.

with lots of love,
Nissa.

may it be.

Fri, 08 Aug 2008 16:54:03 GMT

so, what do you think?

BROKE OFF WITH LINDA ONN (this is actually really old news, but i'm HAPPEEEEEE!)

with love,
Nissa.

bubbling under.

Sat, 02 Aug 2008 15:34:36 GMT

picture credits: Raqin.
to be continued......

with love,
Nissa.